To Weigh...Or Not

I have been humming and har-ing about whether to weigh daily, weekly, monthly or maybe even never. Apart from the fact that I don't have the best scales around, I really haven't weighed myself at home for at least six months - the number just freaked me out so much last time I haven't been game to get back on. I know that some people like to weigh in daily, as part of their morning routine. Others like to weigh in same time once a week. I was on a super lo-cal diet about 4 years ago was weighed in by the team leader once a month; measurements were also taken. I liked that idea because there was always a loss, even if it was small. Measurements really don't mean much to me, I would rather have a number and and clothing size. I was once a slave to the scales. The number that stupid machine presented me with that day dictated my mood. Of course I only used them when I was in full dieting mode, so I could track my last gram and feel better, or worse, about myself. Once I was back to eating whatever I wanted, I avoided them like the plague. I am very fearful of the power they held over me, and I don't want to experience that again. When my excellent doctor, Dr B, asked what goal weight I had in mind, I told him I would rather get to a place where I just felt 'great' instead of letting a number dictate my life. He thought that was very good way of thinking, but still encouraged me to come up with a number. So I cast my mind back... I can remember a particular number when I distinctly recall feeling 'great' - 59kg/130lb. So that's my goal. Dr B then proceeded to tell me that the physio I had seen had thought I should be between 66-71kg and that it will be very hard to get to 59kg. But I didn't much like my visit with the physio - he really didn't want to know anything about me except all of my numbers, so I dismissed his thoughts quite quickly. Besides, to be 66-71kg keeps me in the overweight BMI range, and my goal is to be slap bang in the middle of normal. Please. please, I just want to be normal! So, where am I at right now, two short days before Band Time? Last time I was weighed was at the Dr B's office about three weeks ago I was 94kg/207lb/BMI 37.2 and I could have cried and cried. But I didn't because I was on the road to doing something positive about it, and this time a) it seems to work, b) the results can be maintained and c) I feel quite a part of a really fabulous support group, even tho' I barely know you. So, doing the math means I want to lose 35kg or 77lb. I am also going to weigh myself weekly, probably a Friday because that is the day I get home from hospital. In fact, I am off to the shops today to get a u-beaut scale that will be very accurate. I will make a little chart of my progress and stick it on the back of the bathroom door. I will update stats here. I have read so many great entries in your excellent blogs. So honest, so helpful. Bring it on!! _____________________________________________________________________________ I have to share my puppy Willow with you. She has just turned eight months and is my favourite thing in the world (my husband knows this). She is a Cavoodle - Poodle x Cavalier King Charles Spaniel, her colouring is called Blenheim. I never thought I would be a 'dog person'. But seriously, I cannot tell you how much I love her. She cracks me up all the time, she has such a personality. This photo is when we got her just a few days before Christmas 09. Have a great day. LJ